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June 17th, 2008
01:52 pm - feeling better/ not so happy
well i'm starting to feeling better most of the pain in my ass is gone. it still a bit sore in places. i well be so nice to not have to worry about pain in the back side for once again. on another note i'm not in all that great of a dam mood right now. since like last month i told the person who run this dam place that the tub had a crack in it and it need repaired. well nothing happens so today when i took my bath like the doctor told me to the tub started leaking. i'm jsut lucky the water didn't run down into the phone plug. but it seems most of the water stop above it and never got that far down. so now i can't use the dam tub or shower till like tommorrow after noon. so i'm not in the best of dam moods. this person who run this place doesn't dam well know what she doing. i just wonder who the fuck she gave a blow job to get the job. cause she got no idea what she doing or how things need to be done.
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June 8th, 2008
11:33 pm - er visite from hell
i end up having to go the er to day cause i hurt my anal ring. the how i did doesn't matter all i can say is it hurt enough to make me to see a doctor. which now i almost wish i hadn't. but ways i get up there at like 7 pm or so and i had to wait and wait till like almost 8 pm just to get check in so i can see the doctor. fine they check me and tell me to remove my pants and put onm the hostlile thing. then i wait and wait some more. about 9:30 i think i was the doctor come in asks what happened i answer. he start checking out the front of me not prob i'm ok at this point. then he tell me to roll so he can see that the trouble is. i figure sure this well be fine. i roll over he pulls my cheecks apart which hurt. but that was nothing to say to what he did next. i heard a noise and i look to my left and i notices he pulling something out of a drawer. i look up and he working on putting something on his gloved hand and next thing i know i got a finger being ram up my pain fulled hole. so i'm laying there in pain and making enough noise that i know he knows i'm in pain. so he like well you ass is messed up and i'm going to get you some stuff to fix that. and mind you they gave me nothing for the pain caused by that finger ramming. so it drive me about nuts my ass still mad at me.
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June 5th, 2008
07:14 am - sick
well i finaly figure out what was wrong with me and it not a fun thing to have. about 2 or so days ago while i was a sleep the bed room turn into an oven. and since there where not windows open there was no air coming in. the best i can figure is i all but cooked while sleeping so now i've got heat sickness. i'm working on drinking stuff and relaxing as i try not to get sick as in throw up. i feel like shit i have no engry. i get a little light headed and i got this head that well not stop. this is the second time i've had this. the frist time was alot worse than this time. i think about seeing if i can find a program that well help with the eleictric bill so i can keep the ac going when it like 90 outside. since me and the heat and humidty don't like each other. on other news while i was sleeping for my two hour blocks of sleep. i had something weird happens each time i wake up. i would see this weird image that i couldn't make up in the back ground in front of that was a line with a set of four numbers and letters at the top and bottom they made no since. and they would happen every time i awoke up. i figure he had something to do with me being sick but it was jsut odd.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sick.gif) sick
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June 4th, 2008
06:09 am - i can't sleep
i know i haven't use this program in like forever but i think maybe it time i did. i could use an outlet for alot of my troubles. i guess the best place to start is about a year ago when the doctor i saw told me i was bi polar. jsut what i didn't need to know really but it did explain alot of things. and before you ask no i'm not taking anything cause there not program to well give me free meds since i don;t even have the money for the med programs. my bi polor prob is giving me mood swings, sleeplessness, and alot of other prob it would seem. on top of the bi polar prob i'm stressed out partly from trying to get help from the goverment the other big reason being the bitch who run this dam place is driving me crazy. mostly because even with my being disablited or so the doctor notes said she now what me to work off my county service hours cause the note wore out. which mean if i do as she want i lose my dam disablity claim with the ss office. and i keep trying to tell her this but she think she know better then me. the dam woman one want slave help since she can make people work for free. i've talk to a few people and even some of the doctors i've had to see while doing my claim and the even said i'd lose my claim if i did that. so now i got to see about getting a new note cause she think i should be working even if there soemthing wrong with me. they done pissed me off to the point i end up telling them where they could o and how fast they could get there. which then then turn around and told me if i did that again they throw me out of here. like to see them try it since they push me a bit to dam far. and last i knew you can't get kick from low incoming house for bitching someone out when they woudln't liten to you.
ya i figure you think i got a few angry issues and who wouldn't the shit i been put throught. i mean it gotten so bad that i went down to the bridge in town and looked down at the rvier and thoreught how easy to be to jsut end all this shit now cause i was almost to the point i can't take it anymore. i got no real friend left they move on and i got very few on line friend i driven them away cause of my mood swing and shit. anymore i don't know what to do. i feel like i'm a caged aanimal with no way out. i'm sitting here naked writing this up as the sweat seem to jsut pour off my i have no idea why i'm sweating so much it not that warm it here it more humid them warm. plus i'm working off like two and hlaf hour sleep. i went to bed at mid night woke up at 2:30 and couldn't sleep after that. i was sitting outside ealier watching the lightening flashing over head and thought it was funny now that i look back. there was point where i almost bust out laughing as the lightening flash by. other time i almost started to cry for no reason. maybe there more wrong with me than i know. i just wish i didn't have all this stress right now i figure it way i can sleep.
i so want to get away from here and go some people to get away from it all but then i can't because i have no money to do shit with. i be nice to get out to go to naother town go to some of the stores looks around maybe go out to eat anything but since in ths bloody apartment. i'm a T-rex that trap in a cage with no way out. and i think i'm about to bite the feeders.
Current Mood: frustrated
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December 19th, 2003
12:50 pm
I'm A Furry Fan
How Feral is your Fursona?
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12:46 pm
You're a dragon. You're smart and cunning, and
enjoy taking risks. Your need for independence
is an advantage, but sometimes it alienates you
from others. As far as *good* and *evil*,
you're pretty neutral--but you may have
something of a wicked streak.
What mythical beast are you?
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October 17th, 2003
October 8th, 2003
05:01 pm
You are the horniest of the horny. You want ass,
and you want it now. Lookout world, because
you are on a mission.
How Horny are YOU?
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February 10th, 2003
02:35 pm
You are Bahamut! You are King of the Dragons, and
rightfully so, for few can stand up to your
Mega Flare. Everything about you simply
screams "bad ass."
What Final Fantasy summon are you?
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02:23 pm
Congrats. You're a dragon!
Which type of fantasy furry are you?
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